one year in your life...

Today I remember my first teacher post boards. While the country was glued to their TV sets to monitor the hostage crisis and my brods and sisses were celebrating our victory in the medical boards, I was going crazy (literally with tears and tearful phone calls) trying to manage decompensated heart failure at home...and of course failing miserably dahil ika nga ni Ate Smoketh...ang q1 ay minamanage sa hospital. hahahahaha.

Tito J, maraming salamat sa lahat. On Friday, we will be celebrating your 1st year in heaven. Wag mo muna isama sa yo si Nanay ha....ok?

Little birds will sing along in time...

as the facebook walls erupt with congratulatory messages on the recently concluded Physician Licensure Exams...I'd like to take this time and give thanks to the man who I owe half my genes...

to my daddy, my kapamilya teleserye and MMK guess the title buddy, my taga-sundo and taga-dala ng mga gamit na naiiwan ko sa bahay, to the one who taught me how to use the computer, how to write essays,  how to enjoy movies, songs, and to the one who taught me how to be calm at times of adversity...

Happy Birthday!

I may not understand most of your major decisions and choices in the past 64 years of your life....I am forever thankful that you are and you always try to be there for me all the time.

and for more, congratulations also to our clerks, now our colleagues, our friends from UPCM Class 2011 who made every UPCM student proud today! The day you learned you passed the medical boards is a day you'll always remember for the rest of your life.  :)

and for more nostalgia....this song was sung by my dad when I was little when he puts me to sleep. I remember knowing the tune of this song but I never knew the lyrics nor the title. at dahil may youtube na ngayon...ito pala sya heehee.

breaking dawn...

before my day ends, I find my brain spouting out blog worthy material that I can't type because

1. I am lying in bed

2. nasa taas pa ang computer at nakakatamad umakyat at 1 am.

yes. 1 am. i have had the most erratic body clock since I have left the workforce. I now feel like I'm a call center agent still wide awake at this time while instantaneously falling into deep sleep around 3-5 pm. or...pwede ring jetlagged person galing US. ahahahaha.

hay naker.circles. I feel like I am going around in circles...like a dog chasing its tail...at nahihilo na ako at hindi ko alam paano tumigil. exactly a year ago, I saw my blog entry about the upcoming board exams...one day more ika nga ng kanta ng Les Miz...with matching lyrics ahahaha. and now...one year after...I feel like I've been in a suspended state of animation. but boy am I glad that boards' season is over and done with. it's not something I would want to repeat. ahahaha. BUTH! meron pa nga palang specialty and subspec boards..BUTH ulit....I guess ano...wala ng mas sasaklap pa sa pakiramdam bago ang medical licensure examinations...kung saan nakataya ang pangarap mo. ahahaha.

how weird it is that now I'm in front of the computer typing...I can't seem to compose myself. haha. iba pa rin pag ang utak mo ay diredirechong nagfifire na parang baril...if only I could take those profound thoughts and transform them into blog entries. like the other night I was contemplating about my life as a commuter for the past 27 years...or the other night I had this blogworthy thought of hand me downs...and the other about how children "can make tiis" their parents...but in the end...parents don't....or how hard it is to be alone when you're an only child... and how sometimes I feel like I'm retreating more into myself....or how sad it is to be awake on a Friday night with Facebook and some random movie as your companion while you keep on attempting to read and keep on failing every single time...or how hard it is when you feel like you don't wanna be your parents but you're thankful for them....or the other day where I pondered on my encounters with guys and how it changed from someone helping me dress up, to one shoving a slushie down my back ( and yes, that was way before glee),to proclaiming to my face that no one in their right mind would want to be with someone like me...let alone make me a teenage mom,  to standing me up during prom night, to liking them and finding out that they are fictional characters, taken, di ma-reach, di realistic, and of course ang walang kupas na...becky or halaman or walang kasarian...or to that time when I thought about my mother's wishes for me in my life and how I have no idea if any of them came true....haha. pinaka-runon sentence.

hope that in this time when I can actually  write...I can make these entries worth nothing but thero thommenths. hahahahahahaha.