katas ng mothership...

i am ecstatic. over the moon. no, I didn't win the lotto, nor did I find the cure for AIDS or cancer...


i have not found THE ONE...true chorva....



i did not just stare at the ceiling all day...



my hard drive did not resurrect itself....



buth....



BUTH!!!!!!



I just acquired my post boards gift/christmas gift/advanced birthday gift for myself....

FOR MOOOOOOOOORE downloads and MOOOOOOOOOORE  family projects to do...


ngayon...kelangan ko naman i-figure out ang windows 7. HAHAHAHAHA.

I'll see you when we get there...

the other day HTGOF texted me...

" ayaw ko na pumasok. ayaw ko na mag-interview. ayaw ko na magsulat ng mahaba. Oh no. this is gonna be the rest of my life. ayoko ng mag-umaga. ayoko na." 

okay, let's give HTGOF the benefit of the daw dahil masyado atang tagalized na Mara Clara version ang aking simulated text msg. hahaha. but anyway, being the twins that we are, I replied back with..."ako rin. *see previous blog  post of ranting* let's just be whales and magbilad nalang sa shore." life is really crazy because there was a time where we both wished we were living this life we have right now. like...HTGOF once wanted to be an internist with all her heart and I wanted to know how it was to earn a living (parang ang babaw nung sa akin bigla ahahaha)... but now that we're here, living the dream...hindi pa rin kuntento. siguro si God ay mapapa...SIIIIIIIIIIIIGH nalang ng pinakamalalim. *tsk...tsk...tsk...shakes head*

then yesterday we met up with our sisses and discovered that they too are like us. such similar lives we live. IKR. ahaha. kanya kanya lang derivative of kasawaan sa bagong mundong kinagagalawan. naisip namin tuloy ni HTGOF, siguro may ganoon talagang curse ang edad na ito...ang tinatawag ni SIU, O full of wisdom, na quarter life crisis! AHAHAHAHAHAHA.

hahaha. the recurring theme of my blog post pre-res....quarter life crisis...like a black hole. it's so hard to get out of. then I read Ma'am Jean's blog about graduation speeches, and watched Grey's Anatomy episodes that speak to me, and saw friends from the shore who are living the dream, and then for a split second I see the universe again and its vast opportunities. AHOOOOOY. ahahahaha. lumalalim na ang gabi at duma-dive na naman ang utak ko sa pagiimbento ng kalaliman.

then I remember our thwarted FT plans last week at the shrine with SIU (who was still in Eth-Dee land) and SAFM (who was cavorting in the Circle of Pegasus) where HTGOF and I didn't order anything and just chose to lament out loud in the streets of Adriatico...

"bakit ba kasi mabilis ang gabi? bakit kahit antok na antok ka na hindi ka pa pwedeng matulog kasi sayang ang konting hours of freedom, dahil pag natulog ka, pag dilat mo....bukas na ulit. At for moooooore, uulitin mo na naman lahat ng ginawa mo kahapon! bakit? bakit? bakit?"

 and then after all the air is puffed out of our lungs and as we catch our breath, we suddenly remember that once in our lives this is what we wanted the most...and so, we go home, boot our computers, study, facebook,  check some chismis, download stuff from wherever and sleep...and hope that after many days of doing whatever it is we are doing...we will finally get to where we really want to be.

do you ever feel...like a plastic bag?

I am tired...



of life. of interviewing and explaining to patients that they can't board the ship.i'm sick of iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit.





pero after mga 20 mins....okay na rin ito. the calm before the storm. the monotony before the craziness....and then I have a lightbulb moment...it is indeed...day 14! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

the truth is OUT...na.ahahaha.

this post is dedicated to our Service Senior....Special Agent Fox Mulder who taught us how to bloggeth, introduced us to SMF1 and enjoyed all our AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAs.

congraaaaaaaaaaaaatulaaaaaaaaaaaaaaations you are now an internist! :) 

now....asan na free voltage namin ni HTGOF at Ate Smoketh? AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. just kidding! don't forget to tell us when ang party party! hahahahaha. Good luck sa fellowship! :)

cloudy with a chance of...ANO!

the clock is ticking and it is now the 2nd month of the year...of the friggin metal rabbit and therefore a few months short of impending real life come....September. AHAHAHA. i can hear ticking sounds in my head signaling the fact that I must start thinking again of the future and what I want to do with my life. however, every time I try to push myself into preparations for it...my mind goes crazy and reminds me that this is the time to do everything I want before real life sets in. therefore...tumutunganga tuloy ako. bummmer.

these past 2 months, I have been immersed in family affairs with my cousin's wedding, birthday parties, family outings....all of which I had no time for during med school. kaya kahit mag-absent sa work ok lang makaattend lang ng family outing! dahil wala namang absent-absent-an sa residency!

met up with my college friends Tingle bell, Ms Earth and El Nido today where we ate like pure PGs/patay gutom-s at Mercato in the alta place near St. Luke's Global. haaaaaay. conversation topics ranged from what are you doing the rest of your life?, to residency or not to residency that is the question, moonlighting 101, private vs public....hospital, and of course general chismax! (hahaha. parang mga category sa jeopardy!)....
anyhoo...ang conclusions ay kelangan magtrain para isave ang brain! (from deterioration....and degeneration!)

basically, all of us are bored with the monotony of our day jobs. but scared if kaya pa ba namin makipagsabayan sa mga kabataan. AHAHAHA. the underlying theme therefore is....KATANDAAN. ahahahaha.and some degree of katamaran. hahaha. parang after mo mag-aral ng mahigit 25 years omg.....mag-aaral ka pa ulit pala. hahahaha.

kaya nung aming family reunion dahil isa nalang ako sa nalalabi sa aming mga mag-pipinsang walang asawa ay nagmukmok nalang ako sa isang gilid habang nagbabasa ng washington's manual of medical therapeutics habang ang iba ay nagpapatulog ng kanilang mga anak! AHAHAHAHHA.totally pathetic if it weren't too funny. hahaha. kelangan na kasing magsimulang maging cutthroat. booo.


overall...fun weekend. fun family filled activities. but as always there is that dark cloud in the horizon....like an omen of impending doom! AHAHAHA. sana maging clear soon....