you see I've waited all my life...

after 4 months, a skin biopsy, a new immunologic disease , failed exams, and everyday challenges....I am back. with much less energy and a lot of repressed and HG aka hidden galit.... with the system, with poverty, with the  heat. I feel like I developed progeria and have immaturely turned into a prune. which sucks because just when I am where I thought I wanted to be....I transform into this prune-y person who is nega all the time. I miss my AHAHAHAHAHAs.

maybe it's just the heat.

maybe I just need to go to the beach and reevaluate. need happy sunshine soon.